_call it Philophobia;

Tuesday, November 27, 2007

band performance was awesome! haha. mum came down and supported me. so did grandma! (: and aqidah, nurul and bf! ily. (: haha. played pirates of the caribbean, sock hop tonight, final countdown, i will survive and tequila. hahah. i took loads and loads of photos. serious. but sadly, all with nurul. hais. nvm. shall haunt her down! hahhahahaha. (:

seriously, the feeling of playing trombone is really great. when i set up instrument and everything, it reminds me of the good ol times. and i really miss the times in band. even though we are not so good or up to the standard yet, i felt that the times we spent during band times cant be erased. even though i was the "old" one playin on that performance at lau pa sat, it felt good to be part of the huge family once again. hais. if only i could turn back the time.........................

ok. so, after performance, we headed to kfc at kovan. (: with some of the band members. haha. fun lah. (: read nurul's blog. haha. lazy to type it in al here. haha. since she so free, she typed it all in. hahha. (:

monday, school was oh-so-bad. haha. i hate the problem statement, but i managed to complete it, without any negative comments from faci. (: hahha!

and today, problem statement is like the same as last week's. ugh. cant really expand my thoughts as much. but nvm, in the end, we managed to present it. well, just passable? hah. i dunno lah. ahha. but ok lah.(:

hmm.. shall stop here. photos wil be uploaded later lah. not now. not today. alrite.

and oh yeah! bf gonna cut his hair short! weee. cant wait to see him tmr and accompany him. (:
<3

-& i leave you @ 20:48 :)

Friday, November 23, 2007

im in class right niw and seriously, i am so so tired & sleepyyyyy.!! ugh. been complaining abt this lately!
faci is talking non-stop hits and yet, i think i missed out a lot. ugh. he's beating arnd the bush! hahhaha!
oh yeah. bf going sentosa today with his fam and i couldnt meet him today. awwwww. but im sure he will have lotssa fun there. thanks to his camera that he borrowed from his sch. haha. funny lah he.
oh yah. i'll be performing with the BMB at lau pa sat at sunday 25th. near the satay satay place. haha. yet to be confirmed uh. haha. need mroe details, beep me on that day uh. haha. not to worry. my hp wil be with me.(:
other alumnis will be performing too. florence, alice.. and i think regina. sunarto also. derek also. haha. fun lah this ppl. hahha.
and yest, when i went back for band, small derek and sunarto taught me how to play the piano. fun lah. haha. i learned two songs only. twinkle twinkle littlestar a.k.a baa baa blacksheep and happy birthday! hahhaha. (: i knw. its a non-graded song. haha. anws, i have fun oi! haha.
alrite. so now, i just heard faci talking abt customer's satisfaction, customers management, and blah blah blah. (: and yes, i need to catch up with my third meeting. hahaa.
ok set. im endign ehre. wanna concentrate. haha. wokays. ppl, take care.

oh bf. thanks for being there for me, always. (: & yes, no matter wad, our teenage love wil always be there. (: ily.

-& i leave you @ 11:11 :)

Saturday, November 17, 2007

no photos, no long posts. just, a short simple post.

to my dearest brother:
dun give up! im sure u can do well for next year. don't play too much lah. aiyoh. see lah. ur results. hais. work hard ok? i'll be there for u! woots!

to gerald: thanks for everything. finally u understood wad i meant and i am sure u can improve. cause no matter wad, ily. i cant wait for us to get back together, when u are ready. yeah.

class was fun, ugh. ahhaa. love hem to the bits.

oh yeah. im performing with my juniors from BMB. haha. (: at lau pa sat on 25th nov. sunday. (: do come and see us uh. well, i myself funno why i agreed to mr goh to play with them. Lol. just... accept lah. like.. nothing much going on, so.. just to kill my past time, besides schooling... just.... well. accept la! hahha. duh.

so pp, enjoy ur weekends alrite? (: haha. i think im going out with mummy and lil bro later on. oh ya. i think my aunt will join too. dunno yet. lol. see how uh. haha. dad have to help out something outside. ugh. duno lah. ahahha. kks. shall stop here.

goodbye, ppl! WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE...

-& i leave you @ 15:15 :)

Sunday, November 11, 2007

Ppl! i wanna tell u guys a secret!! (: i lazy to blog. but but but, i will erm.. update photos! ahahha. ok, here goes.

ECP.

ECP II

ECP III

him & me. TP.

TP Band.

him & me. TP.

edited.

Ok. Done! (: Toodles!

-& i leave you @ 14:21 :)

Wednesday, November 07, 2007

today was fine. did nothing much. same old thing when hols drop by. woke up arnd 10 am, bathe, had breakfast and watch tv. channel 8, around people's park. ok lah. not bad. was an old show. but nice lah. hmm.. wad else.. oh. arnd 4 plus dad fetch us to fetch mum from office and go out for dinner. i dunno y, when i step into the car, my head wa like spinninggggggg.. ugh. reached mum's office and peek at her. see wda she doing. ok lah. bro and i sat in front of her desk.. do noting. just.. disturb her. hahaa. after that went bedok to eat. den.. dunno where to go, just go giant at tampines. cause i heard tmr my family and other realtives wanna go for a picnic. well. ahhaha. shall see how uh. shud confirm alrd lah. cause mum alrd bought the stuffs for tmr. abit only. not much. cause aunt also bringing some stuff.s Lol. (: hmm. yeah. i bought this cadury hot chocolate drink. in fact, im drnking it rite now. goodness. the taste is oh-so-different than wad i tot it would be. nvm lah eh. hahaha. still chocolate. hahaha. yeah. nw.. getting photos from gerald. yeah. and after that, i wana sleep. will upload more photos tmr nite. wel, after the picnic, i guess. (hope im not tired). haha. (which i thnk i'l be. cause god knows where i get the energy from) Lol. yeah. so.. some expired photos and aqidah's concert photos will be uploaded soon. yeah.

i think thats all for now. i so sleeeepyyyyyyy..
ugh. and guess wad? my head is spinning again. ugh.!

-& i leave you @ 23:45 :)

Tuesday, November 06, 2007

like finally i got lotssa things to blog about. ok, so here goes!

friday, 2nd november 2007
haha. went for aqidah's concert at tp!! wuhuuu..!! she looks great while playing! hhaha. wow. didnt knw that she still hold on to the skil she have uh. hahaha. i feel proud and happy for her! really.! esp seeing her and kadri up on stage playin the piece together. isnt that lovely? hahha. before that shyaq fetch me from home and well, went tp together. cause seriously, i dunno how to go there by myself, frm serangoon. haah! (: i only played arnd woodlands. hahaha. (: yeah. so, i wore a green and white dress that i bought from forever 21. (: nice. preety preety dress. haha. yeah. gerald came slightly later cause he got some CIP thingy. and after the concert, we thought of taking photos with kadri and aqidah. but see her so happy happy take photos with others and well.. seems like it's her nite! hahha. so, we decided not to disturb her. haha! in the end, shyaq, me and gerald took photos. and we proceed home. as some of u read shyaw's blog, yeah. we played this game. hahaha. the silent game. lol. and guees wad? well, i've lost. hahahah!! (: nvm. u al knew i cant keep quiet rite? den still wanna play! aiyoh. hahha. overall, the evening was great. (:

saturday, 3th november 2007
went for RP's amazing race!! whoah. we came out with a tam of 3. haha. fione, me and shimah. we reach skool and registered. they said flagoff at 10am, but report at 9.50am. so, we got sometime left, we went library to play xbox360. (: hahha. fun! hahha. den, when we report back at 9.50, they say the flagoff alrd. no wonder no one there alrd. aiyoh. hais. bad instruction they gave us. hahaha. but nvm. they whole thing was very inetersting lah. haha. i dun think i wanna type everything here. hahah.but, i tell u where we went. we went first to punggol end, den changi airport, den vivocity, den clarke quay, den amk and then yishun. actually got 1 more to go. queenstown. but the race ended when we reached yishun. so, we went back. haha. at least we were not last. we were the 9 out og 29 team. not bad uh! hahhaha.! after that, we went back skool for dinner and prize giving. shimah and i bathe at the sports complex. so, at least we feel rejuvenated. hahah! (: after everything over, i asked dad to fetch me hahha. lazy go back uh. hahaha. so, i ate sandwich in the car. hahha. still hungry. dunno why! hahaha. i guess i burned alot of energy uh. hahhaa. yeah. thats all for the amazing race. went i reached home, my uncle came over to our hse for hari raya visiting. seriously, i cnt feel the hari raya mood alrd. hais. time passed by so fast! ahaha. and after that, my whole family went to cousinhse at sengkang for gathering. i didnt follow. instead, i hit the sack. so shagggg!

sunday, 4th november 2007
went out with leo, edwin, trupti and shu kang! hahahhahaha. fun like heaven! hahhaa. i miss then oh-so-much! hahha. we went to watch movie. the game plan. haha. the one with the rock and the small kid. hahhaa. funy! hahha. but in the end, i cried. ugh. hahaha. beside leo somemore! ahhaha, paiseh seh. hahah. trupti best! hahha. after sad sad, she can continue eat popcorn seh! hahha. wah lau. hahahhaha. i down there like.. "WOW". hahhaa. after movie, walk walk arnd PS. den. we went to istana park, opposite PS, to take photos! hahahhaa. after that, we went home. we took like.. 77 photos. hahaha. nice seh. now trupti sending me the photos. the folder is so so so so humongous. hahhaha. will show u guys the photos!! overall, i love the outing. hahah. same ol us. (:

monday, 5th november 2007
nth much, slack at home alone. haha. watch hindi movies, since there is a preview on it. star gold. hahhaa. yeah. cook my own lunch. and yeah. nth much. (:

today, 6th november 2007
haha. went out with EO, eliz, ZQ, makoto and shawn to suntec. hahaha. funny funny funny! EO so sweet uh. hahaha. well, hahha. nvm lah eh. dun have to say it here. i also paiseh later. hahha. anw, just wanna thank him for wad he did. hahaha. (: yeah. we watched "the seeker". wah. dark vs the light. nice one! its a must watch. hahha. den took neoprint. hahha. EO suggested it. and we laughed and hahaha well, we took it. ahaha. the machine was so so corrupted. haha. in the end, we have a free take on the other machine. hahaha. fun lah these ppl. well, the wrkshp was alrite. hahahaha!! (: den. went home. now, here i am, blogging! hahhahaa. LOLS. told u got a lot to update. hahaha.!

and i got one more thing. to say. well, i dunno whether it wil be appropriate to say it here. but, i wunt say it drirectly lah. but.. those who gets it, den they knw. those who doesnt, nvm lah eh.

1 year and 5 months was long enough for us to get to knw each other, for now. even though things wont be the same again, i knew, that there will always be room for improvement. im not saying that my love for u fades. but, i just need time for u to get things settle between u and ur family. i dun want to put pressure on u, after so much that has happened. i took my leave and decided to give u fresh air to breathe, so that u can reflect wad u have done and see wad is right and wrong. also, to think abt how much u have knwn me. im sorry to leave u at this time. however, i think it's the best for both of us. i knw each and everyone is unique. but sometimes, it's difficult to explain things to u. gerald, im sorry. i can guarantee u this. in my heart, until now, there is a place for u. not much, but at least, just for u. we might find a place in this world someday. but at least for now, i gotta go my own way..

yeah. thats it for now. so, pictures! hahaha. these are the non-edited one uh. edited ones will be at my frendster. LOL. hahha. late alrd. dun wanna edit now. ok. so here goes the pics!

& they were the ones that make me laugh!

tunnel. oh tunnel. act emo only. haha.

this is wad happenes when leo is all warmed up. ahhaha!!

fighter!

oh. we are so not prepared for this. hahah!

poster girls?

ouh. non-perfection. (?)

awwwww!

history unites!

deprived kids. he once wants to be a power ranger. so do i!

& the guys!

bored.

edwin is so so so so so long. oops. i mean, tall. (:

nice show. must watch!!

trupti: why sit so far? got hole.

fifah & leo : erm. ya lah. why u so far? Lol. hahaha.

again. cheese!

awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww!

-& i leave you @ 22:30 :)

Thursday, November 01, 2007

well. back to blogging. just finish presentation. later gonna meet aqidah to take the tix for her concert tmr evening. well.. seriously, i cant wait to see her play the trombone! it kidns reminds me of the time we used to play together in secondary school. i really miss her like super mad. haha. i bought a dress from forever 21 days ago, just to wear it for her concert. and its so damn preety lah. i like. green and white. not bad. (: hahaha.

family's been fine., seriously, i got nothing to say. even if there is, only god knows. (:

w24b was oh-so-great. i love! hahha. we celebrated halloween yesterday. well, isnt that obvious? hahhahaha. through the pix of coz! haha, (: the whole class kinda wore black. haha. and my frend said that we looked like the black marias. hahaa. Lol. wadeva la eh. hahha. dinie kena make-up by vanessa and corine. damn funny lah. but he look good, though. hahha. din had a surprise belated bdae party and also kena make up! hahha. he have beautiful eye lashes, u knw! jealous! ugh. hahhaha! den took loads and loads of photos! (: went back with part-time bf, EO, shawn the elf and elizabeth the crazy witch!! (: hAHhahah! walked all the way to mrt station. shawn and i took train, while elizabeth and EO took bus.

den met up with gerald.... blah blah blah. no comments. no references also. simply, no comments.

up to u lah. if u think u rlife is upside down, den let be it. i dun wanna get involve. do wad u want. im keeping myself happy. thats for damn sure. i have my frends, u have urs. u have YOUR FAMILY, i have mine. so, i quit. see how far this goes. & look at the damage behind u that u have left.

so thats it for now. (: nth mucbh to update. gonna leave school soon and then met up with gf at hougang mall. and guess wad? i cant wait to camwhore. (: woots!

-& i leave you @ 16:37 :)