Sunday, April 30, 2006
29 April.
Hmm.. well.. didnt do much. Went for MT lessons in the morning. ORAL. Dammit. I knew i'm like so dead. Pakat with Aqidah to cum abit late. Haha.. cher ask to cum at 8am. But we came at 9.15. Joke? Nah. It's true. We even saw Cecilia and Maria went home. Bet their turn was over. Haha.. den.. came in clas.. saw sum of them.. still in there. Haha.. so.. kinda do sum malay stuffs.. and den.. slept with aqidah.. so.. when we woke up.. left only me, aqid, and sum 4N students. Argh. My heart pounding hard. Like crazy. Den.. my turn. Shit. Reading was ok. The conversation.. was.. HORRIBLE. It's a disaster. I cant even ans most of the qn. Cher said i was too touchy. Hahhaha. Laughed til my stomach hurts. Den.. aqid's turn. Cher say.. dun contaminate aqid with my cant-ans-your-question-thingy. So.. there she goes. Went in.. haha. God knws wad happened. Haha.. den.. After oral.. kinda waited for Gerald to finish his class. Soon.. after he finished.. went to kovan awhile.. aqid hungry.. so.. accompanied her. Gerald followed too. Bet he's bored. HAha. Den.. went home..with aqid.. Dad's not in. Went out. Left with mum and bro. Felt so tired in the afternoon. Slept awhile. Woke up about.. 5+ ..den dad came back.. and asked us to get ready to go out. Watch football. Singapore Vs Perlis. Ok la. Not that bad.. as usual. I'm hungry. So.. in the end. Singapore 3. Perlis 2. Nice. Wasn't really paying attention to Gerald's msges the whole nite. Was busy with bro and football. Nice. Haha.. den.. Gerald said sumthing.. which really made me change my mood. I knew wad he's trying to say. However.. his approached.. kinda.. made me feel weird. Different from other guys. So.. i decided.. to tell him to take it slow first. * If u get what i wrote, you knew wad i meant * So.. kinda dropped the subject. Talk about other things. Den. Told Aqid about it. Indeed she's happy for me. However. I need to meet her. And kinda.. tell her how i felt. Haiz. Thank God for having a frend like Aqidah. Sisters forever huh? Haha. Suree. Comrade since sec1. Nice.. So... for the whole nite.. Gerald accompanied me thru. Went home abt..10.50pm.. Abt 12+ .. he wanted to sleep. So let him be. I slept about 2+ am. Cant sleep. Mind was sumwhere else. Prelims, things to do, myself and him*. Haiz. Nvm lah. Read a book on egyptians. Love it. I dunno y.. reading abt the things i love since childhood made me.. HAPPY and FORGET abt the things that's playing in my head. So.. in the end... i knocked out arnd.. 2.15 am? With my pooh bear beside me, hp far from my bed, with my book open in front of me. Woke up in the morning. Had breakfast. And here i am..... recalling what happened yesterday..............
-& i leave you @ 10:01 :)
Friday, April 28, 2006
Ok.. haha.. juz another day.. oopsie. Nope.. Juz now sat for Prelims.. Eng P1.. and SS.. HAiz... dun wanna talk abt it.. eng was ok.. but.. SS... kinda a big disappointment. Idiot. But nvm. Hmm.. after papers.. went to canteen to eat.. haha.. with Aqid and Gerald.. talked abt Mt.. as usual.. cant finish food. Haiz.. Hmm.. den.. went to 4th level.. with Aqid.. to do MT.. Gerald went for Mt oral. Hmm.. talked crap with Aqid.. wanna do Malay.. however.. in the end.. talked nonsense. Lost mood. Soon Gerald msged me.. and wanted to cum up.. and join us. So happy. =D .. haha. Den.. talked crap .. den played truth or dare.. haiz..im the first one to kena seh. Haha..wel... WAD A QN TO ASK, AQIDAH. Haha.. well.. lazy to write wad happened.. so paiseh to write abt it anyway. Haha..den 2.38 went for Mt. SAd to leave Gerald behind.. but.. still got to do Mt. In the lab... worse. Our boredom is very contageous. Spread the disease to Shyaq. Haha.. do taggin here and there.. and emailed each other.. Aqid la. Start first. Hahaha.. Den.. bout.. 5.50pm Mr Asmadi released us.. went Macs.. as usual.. haha.. talked mroe crap.. i dunno y.. But today.. i felt so so so so happy. I dunno y. Maybe.. it's becoz of.......... Him*? I dunno. As i said, i'm afraid to tell the truth. As well as.. to know the truth.
Love??
Friendship??
I dunno.
Seriously, i dun.
Sometimes.. his* presense made me happy. Sometimes.. his* presense reminds me of the past..
I hope.. the day will cum.. where.. things culd settle in the rite place. Yeah. I saw a ray of light. I dunno whether it's hope. Or is it juz totally an illusion that i'm supposed to believe in?
Trusting the voice within...
-& i leave you @ 20:35 :)
Thursday, April 27, 2006
Hmm.. today.. woke up at abt.. 6am.. Den msg Gerald.. and wished him gd luck for his physics practical prelim today. In return.. he told me not to be nervous too. Haha.. It rained in the morning.. so.. kinda felt abit.. sleepy going to skool.. however.. no choice but stil, have to memorize sum chem stuffs. Haha.. reached skool.. blabber bio stuffs to Shyaq. Haha.. Pity him.. den.. Mrs Yeo came in.. and kinda mark attendance.. and.. Mrs Chou came in too.. and brief us abt our practical exam.. Hmm.. I'm in shift 2.. so.. my paper start at 10 am.. so.. killed my time from 7 plus to 10 by drawing flowers for bio later.. i kinda picked and choose the flowers to draw. LOL . Which is a wrong thing to do. Haha.. den talked to Gerald in class.. study chem.. haiz.. den.. it's my turn!! Shift two..!! ARggh.. Panic abit.. haha.. the chem paper is fun..! Mix this, Mix that.. Heat this, Heat that.. hahha.. blue ppt.. white ppt.. cool..but bio.. is a disaster. Haiz.. yup. Draw the thing that i chose to draw.. however.. read the wrong qn. Paiseh to the max..! Arggh.. den.. starch? I think i cant see properly... there WAS starch!!!! Idiot. Can i re-sit for the paper?????!! Haha.. den.. after paper being collected.. went down for break.. eat with Gerald, windi, shyaq, syafiq, hafiz and sudono.. Talked more crap. Haha.. den MT. PAisehh.. forget to bring Malay paper.. lucky no need stand again. Argh. Den bio... syiok like heaven.. it's like free period.. Ms Teo didnt came in.. so.. sit there.. talked to Sakun and Leo.. den.. after that.. went down to class again to take sum malay notes from Mr Asmadi. HAha.. den.. wanna go home with Gerald..but forgotten that i've got lunch wif Ms Yong. Den Gerald stayed in class.. waited for me.. while the other guys go cut syafiq's hair. Haha.. Den.. when i reached canteen, Mrs YEo's mentees also ordered Macs. So.. I go called Gerald.. and asked him why he didnt cum to the canteen as well.. he said.. he didnt knw abt it. LOL. Haha.. Den.. we all ate together.. very full! However, thanks Ms Yong.. for the treat.. =D .. den.. during the meal....
Ms YOng: U not hungry ar? Eat so slow.
Me: No lah. (smiles)
Lothars: Her lover beside her wat.. paiseh mar!
CAndy: Hehe.
Aryanti : Hehe.
Ms Yong: WAh.. frends like that ar? ( smiles; looking at them )
I'm like.. lol.. blushing like mad ... haha.. lucky gerald didnt hear that. Den..we went home.. saw Ms Yong again.. she asked.. " You both really bf gf ar? " Gerald and i.. juz smile. No comments.
HAha.. den took 80.. went Cp.. library.. borrowed some books.. den walked arnd .. den.. went home.. haiz.. tmr ss prelim..scared like crazy.. gonna study soon.. till here then.. will update later...
Miss U.
-& i leave you @ 16:43 :)
Wednesday, April 26, 2006
Ok.. today dun like crazy.. dunno why kept smiling.. hahas.. Took temperature.. in the morning.. during assembly.. like one kiddo down there.. hahhaa.. funny sehh.. den.. the best part is.. tmr prelim starts. Cool huh? Haha.. crap.. Gonna burn down the bio lab.. haha.. Joke. Hmm.. Math. As usual.. did graph.. ok lah.. not bad.. den.. followed by.. geog.. did sum thingy on GM .. bleahs.. dunno lah.. den.. Eng.. Mr Ng neva came in.. again, talked crap with sofia and hanis. Haha.. den recess.. Again, ate with sofia.. =) .. den.. MT.. Paiseh! Kena stand.. for not doing peribahasa. Haha.. den.. POA. Got surprise test.. haha.. panic awhile.. den lunch.. nth much.. den.. ACt.. bio.. ok lah.. talked abt tmr's prac.. den.. Waited for Gerald to finish up his phy.. den went home.. kks.. shall stop here.. kinda in a rush. Haha.
-& i leave you @ 20:27 :)
Tuesday, April 25, 2006
Ok.. Hmm.. today.. skool kicked off with normal assembly.. den.. showed Ms Er my thermometer.. haha.. nice. Old one not working.. Paiseh awhile.. Hmm.. Den.. Mrs Yeo.. didnt cum.. bleah. No Mrs Yeo = No POA. hahha. Cool. Den.. math.. nth much happen. Den..chem.. went thru prac paper. Not bad.. i did fairly well.. =D.. happy seh. Haha.. kk.. den.. MT. Argh.. Mr Asmadi. Told u i will be stressed up when i see him. Bluek. Ok lah.. he's nice today.. =D .. went thru the paper that he gave yesterday.. den.. recess.. as usual.. went makan with sofia and aqid. Talk crap as usual. Haha.. nearly choked on my food when talk about Gerald. Haha.. den.. CE lesson.. did reflection on Integrity. Boring. So dry... but.. i did handed in my portfolio.. haha.. Got sum pictures inside.. Gerald wanted to see it.. However..too paiseh to show him my stupid innocent face .. hahahhaha! =D .. Den.. SS.. Study time! haha.. Self-study.. Nice.. talked to Hanis. Den.. lunch. Nth much.. Den ACT..Mr Ng got meeting. Haiz. Self study again. Listen to sofia's mp3. Nice. Haha.. Den.. Mr khoo came in.. do POA. Argh.. Sat with Gerald to do it. We're the last one to finish. Not copywriter hor. Haha. Den.. SS S3P.. apologize to Mrs RAj for cumin in late with Gerald. Got to do POA. Den.. sat together.. talk talk talk..till 5pm.. den went home. OMG. Going home was a disaster.. haha. Kena teased by frends.. Me + Gerald = Together. Well.. guys.. let me tell u sumthing.. Frankly speaking, i dunno. I cant judge his attitude or feelings towards me. Haha. I mean.. yeah.. we're close.. however..to determine whether we're together or not.. i dunno. That one.. got to wait. Time will cum. So.. guys.. relax... Haha. Dun get excited over such small things.. anyway.. keep it hush hush. Yes yes, to answer ur qn.. we're dearies. But that doesnt mean we are attached. As i said, it's up to Gerald to decide too. Wokie? So.. meantime.. study for prelims!!!! ARGH!!!
Shud i? Or shud i not?
-& i leave you @ 18:35 :)
Monday, April 24, 2006
Ok.. another day in BSS. School kicked off with a skit.. by the CCC. Cute sia. Not bad. Haha.. Integrity.. our way of life. Nice. HAha..Niwaes, didnt bring thermometer for checking. Paisehh like siao.. den.. geog.. Ms Yong didnt really teach.. she got no voice alrd.. pity her.. haiz.. den.. eng.. Mr Ng rocks man.. haha.. keep chasing us for our work.. lucky i always hand in.. phew.. ok .. then.. recess.. went with sofia.. talked crap as usual. No duty alrd.. haha.. weird.. Hmm.. ate chicken chop.. for fun? haha.. den as usual.. walked back to class.. saw my dearie Gerald. Playing cards as usual.. den.. got prepared for SS. Argh.. Prelims in 4 days time! Scared. Oh dear.. haha. It's ok Mrs Raj.. I wunt disappoint u this time round.. haha.. Hmm.. den.. POA. Bleah. Sleepy all the way. Didnt knw how i manage to sit thru the lesson. ARGH. Den.. lunch.. did nothing much.. sat in class.. did sum math b4 Ms Tay cums in.. sit with Gerald and studied chem.. for test later on.. time passed so fast.. and there goes our math lesson. Next in our list, MALAY. Oh-oh. I see MR Asmadi i stress. Dunno y. Today he photocopy a practice from 56 different skool. NICE. It's jaw-dropping for aqidah and me. 56?! Wait for hari raya to cum also havent finish seh! haha.. Den.. Nth much..sit thru the lesson.. and then.. ta-dah.. Mr Sng outside class.. waiting for Mr Asmadi.. haha.. chem time.. did sum tys qns.. pester shyaq.. haha.. nice. At last.. managed to scrape thru chem test. Phew. However.. it rained. Haiz. AS usual Gerald waited for me to pack my bag.. and go home together.. Weather not so kind to us evertime.. Whenever we wanna go home together, it rained. Bleah. Nvm. Thank God for that. Amin. =) .. den.. saw rachelle outside G.Office... assorting her papers.. haha.. cute.. hmm.. waited for gerald to call his dad.. whether to fetch him or not.. but eventually.. his dad not free.. so.. we go home together.. once again, TOOK BUS. hahha.. But.. halfway thru walking.. rain getting heavier.. im all drenched up.. but den at a glance.. gerald's hair looks nice.. when it's wet. Haha. =D... Den.. lucky my bus came first.. and left gerald at the bus stop.. haha.. so.. juz wanna end my story like a pri skool eng compo.....
" i went home happy, but tired. " Sweet, huh?
Miss u dearie.
-& i leave you @ 21:59 :)
Sunday, April 23, 2006
Happy, happy. =D .. hahahhaha.. 1145am. S***. Still not ready. Wanna msg gerald saying that i will be late. But too paiseh. Crap. Forget it. Den.. 12.15. S****. Bus 156 havent cum. Aqid called me. Gerald msged me. Oh-oh. DEad meat. Finally gerald saw aqid.. and when i reached her bus stop.. she came and fetched me. Sweet gurl. Haha.. yuppie.. Den.. off we went... Bus 101. Headed to? Tampined mall. For? Kadri's b'dae. (Happy b'dae, my frend!) . Den.. inside bus.. heart punding like mad. Dunno how to react towards Gerald. Argh. Smile here, smile there. Gee. Aqidah heart also beating like crazy. WAiting for kadri's arrival. Then syaq msged. Saying that he's waiting for kadri to finish his prayer.. Den when aqid, me and gerald reached, we went makan at Long John. Nice. Aqidah panic. AS usual. haha. Den..syaq msged. THEY ARRIVED. Aqidah panic.. like crazy. Dunno wads got into her.. then.. they went mac.. we went down.. and join them. Saw syaq queuing.. saw kadri sitting.. eating.NICE. hahaah. Den aqidah.. scared. Paiseh. I led the way.. and boo! Happy, b'dae kadri! And there.. aqidah shook his hand.. and.. accompanied him.. and gave his present. Meanwhile, gerald talked to syaq.. and then.. gerald and i went off.. to mind our own business. Leaving Aqidah with Kadri. Sweet huh? haha. Den.. gerald and i went jalan jalan.. go toys 'R' us.. nice.. haha.. saw sum cute bears.. and gerald showed me some nice cars. He's so sweet. =) Den syaq msged. Wanna join both of us. Aqid and Kadri still talking at macs. So.. i dun mind.. =D ..even though he;s a light bulb for a while. haha. Sorry Syaq. Haha. Wokie. Den.. after that.. went arcade. Boys went in to play.. aqid and i went down to grab an ice-cream. After they played.. we kinda played hide and seek? Dunno where we went. Dunno where the guys went. Gerald called. I panic. Heart pounding. Paiseh. He asked where are we. Den..,we joined them.. after that.. we walked.. to the interchange.. aqid & Kadri. me & Gerald. Syaq??? ALONE. OUR BODYGUARD. Thanks dude! =D.. den.. kadri, aqid, gerald and me.. took 72 to hougang interchange. Upon reaching, kadri sent aqid home. Gerald sent me to 147 booth. His house near mar.. no need sent me home. =D.. lol. Paiseh for awhile.. yup.. den we went home.. JUST LIKE THAT. WENT HOME SMILING LIKE A MAD GIRL. SO SO SO DAMN HAPPY. haiz.. tmr skool. Got chem test.. lucky study alrd. ahahha. Ok then. Till here.
A & K
A & G
230406.
PAINTED MEMORIES. =D
-& i leave you @ 19:21 :)
Friday, April 21, 2006
ok.. fine.. lets go straight to the point.. haha. Had POP juz now.. fun seh.. practice alot.. haha.. den rain.. den hot.. den rain.. den.. hot again.. no wonder i got this migraine.. haha.. den.. g****** waited.. and see my parade. Paisehh for awhile. haha..den he went home.. coz.. i told him that i will be very late.. hahah.. den.. doodle-di.. haiz... i heart pain to tell talk abt it.. haiz.. only aqid knws how i feel sehh.. hahah. haiz.. wad can i do? but if u were to ask me to follow my heart, Doodle-Di will be my choice. however.. on the other side.. u wuldnt knw.. wad will happen.
4 months.
it's long.
let me keep it longer.
it's never meant to be broken.
i shall hold my silence.
till the day.. when i either cry tears of joy or sorrow.
i dunno. wadeva it is, the firmament is singing.
-& i leave you @ 20:39 :)
Saturday, April 15, 2006
Haiz.. juz another day..kinda.. feelin down rite now.. dunno y. Shit lah. So stressed up with stuffs.. haiz.. Let's see.. juz now went to skool.. for MT paper.. haiz.. ok lah.. not that bad.. den went back with *****d. Got many things in my head for now.. hmwrk.. but.. i think.. the most thing that really fill up my head are SC and BAND.. Haiz.. i know that i alrd stepped down.. however.. sum of them... HAiz.. relax lah.. i understand how u all feel. But.. if u keep holding me back, of coz.. i cant be happy. haiz.. i juz want to end everything. I want to start a new chapter. I wanna begin a whole new story. I wrote enuff for band and sc. Enuff for both alrd. My life were filled with beautiful moments with all of u.. however..it's time to let go. Indeed.. Why Do U Make It So Complicated?
-& i leave you @ 13:52 :)
Wednesday, April 12, 2006
ok.. damn. rumours got to my ears.. Me + G*****. CRAP. We're juz frends lah. Bartleyans.. haiz.. narrow-minded. Doesnt mean he always with me.. i like him. jokes man. THIS IS A PUBLIC ANNOUNCEMENT. G***** AND I ARE JUZ FRENDS. NOTHING MORE, NOTHING LESS. OK? GET THAT INTO EVERYONE'S HEAD? ARGH. Getting confused now. everyone's talking abt it. ARgh. Hate it. But wad can i say? Rumours has it. Thanks to aqidah and Shyaq for havin a trust in me and believe me instead. Haiz. Let's see.. it's been a long long time since i wrote.. was busy these few days with skool stuffs. anyway. no mood to write alrd. TC =X
-& i leave you @ 20:05 :)
Saturday, April 08, 2006
070406
ok.. haha. yesterday.. was soo soo fun.. but be4 that.. my bones are like.. aching.. due to yesterday's 5 station.. napfa test. But it's cool. I passed alot. haha.. With As and Bs. Ok lah.. haha.. Hmm.. after school.. went kovan with aqidah..to buy nurul's present for her bdae tmr..Hhaha. Always keep our eyes on the price tags. Haha.. Den.. came Gerald.. promised to meet him there..
den.. eat macdonalds with both of them... lol.. paiseh here and there.. thanks to? AQIDAH. With her jokes which really argh.. makes the situation more tense? Haha.. LOL. ok lah.. den.. after eating.. aqidah complained her stomach pain.. EAT TOO MUCH. Lol.. haha.. den she left both of us. Damn. My heart pumping like mad. Paiseeh like crazy. And there she goes.. Bye bye-ing.. Den.. gerald and i.. walked walked.. around kovan... talking.. laughing.. make fun or the king kong.. den take a look at some bears.. haha.. den.. about.. 5.. went to compass point.. damn. I never ask mum to gimme money to top-up ez-link to take train. No choice but to take bus. He dun really like it.. haha.. but too bad lah. Haha.. den we sat down.. and listen to his iPod songs.. let me listen his favourite song. Seek and Destroy? I think so.. haha.. den.. reached compass.. walked from 1st floor to 4th floor.. went library.. look at stupid books. Haha.. Go sembawang shop to look at cds.. and stuffs.. den tell me some horror movies that he knew. Yuck. I hate those movies. haha. Den.. we decided to go home.. cause.. im like so tired.. summore tmr he got skool.. so.. i better go home early too.. When he reached home.. he msged me.. and kinda asked me what im doing.. msged till 11+ .. i reached home about.. 7+ .. yeah.. den.. i decided to sleep. he also decided to sleep. yeah..
But frankly speaking. i dunno wad was that all about. As in.. the meeting, the going out, the msges. Wehardly knew each other. but in juz 2 years.. things changed alots. Especially these few months. ARgh. Nothing culd explain wad happened yesterday. We juz took it the way it is.
-& i leave you @ 11:21 :)
Monday, April 03, 2006
Ok fine. It's like ages since i wrote in this blog.. Well.. The last entry was about.. The big confusion of cheerleading.. Ok.. Here's out it ended. WE WON AS CHAMPIONS AGAIN. Wad can i say? We're good. We really went thru the hardest point in this whole thingy. Special thanks to Albert and all SC teachers-in-charge.. Well.. It rained during the sport carnival.. But.. After the one whole week of break, once again, we're in the cheerleading mood.. coz.. during the one week break, dick went to France, and my heart didnt really.. U knw.. Feel good without him arnd.. haiz.. lucky ria was there for me.. Hmm.. Lotzza things happened. We didnt had practice for the entire break. Crap. But then, my heart says.. "ok 2nd place." Thats it. But then.. its not abt 1 min routine or 4 min routine, or winning. It's all about working together and frendship. It's not about the medals or sumthing.. its about holding up our motto. Be the best that we can be. Band came 3rd and.. Ncc (Air) 2nd.. tough competition. Hmm.. it's fun.. can u imagine.. 3 hours before the actual competition, we actually practice individual stunts? Albert was there.. trying to be patient with us.. but in the end.. he blew up abit.. den.. idham.. argh.. got ncc parade thigny. Idiot. How to do basket toss and elevator? Jokes man. But cant be blame lah. CCA comes first. Den.. went for make-up. Once again, it rained. Argh. But.. it was held at the hall.. haha. Cool huh? Mr Lim was like.. taking video for all of us. Haha. Den.. we did our best lor. Nth much to say.. only those hu were there knew wad i meant. It's all about crowd appeal and the way we cheer and change the atmosphere. Save the best for the last! Haha.. ok.. den.. yea.. we won.. Hugged Ria, Dick, Muhaimin, Fel, SP, Aaron, Justin and Namira. Not to forget my coolest 2nd spotter, Kanages. She's the best, man. Worked with me for 2 years in cheerleading.. Haha. Great to have her arnd.. Well.. 24 march 2006.. painted memories.. i will neva forget those beautiful moments.. where.. our dreams soar, our throats became sore too! Haha.. ended things at kovan KFC, eating dinner.. it was fun though. However, when i think back, there are other stuffs that i must do. STUDIES. I'm now a 16 year old gal.. sitting for 'O' levels soon. These 4 years were fruitful to me. However, it's time to let it go.. and go back to real business which i forget about it most of the time. Band and SC really changed my life.. Cant deny that. I still remember the time when i stepped into Bss, where i knew nth abt leadership and stuffs. All i culd think of were studies. But.. sec 2 and sec 3.. kinda wasted.. wasted too much time on Band and SC. Now.. i realized.. it's the time to get back to the path which i lost it 2 years ago.. To be the gal.. hu only concern most abt her studies. As wad ms yong said.. ITS TIME TO LET GO. Now.. im letting it go.. letting others to take my place. At least.. In Bss, BAnd, Sc.. I found a whole new world..where this gal, named Nur Afifah.. learnt something, found something, discover something.. more about herself.. which no one knew....
Memories like this will neva be forgotten.
The moon and star were my witnesses.
I'm leaving now.
For my own good.. and for urs.
-& i leave you @ 20:53 :)
